Gamma Rantings...

•Friday, August 10, 2007•

Stressed and Pressured.....

Busy busy busy week...Gah...Life here is hard...

First, there was C++ Replacement until 5pm on Monday. And after returning home, exhausted, after a hurried lunch from the Pasar Malam which was probably dirty due to the fogging that was being carried out there, we had to gather in the Akasia compound, feeding our blood to mosquitoes and wasting time entirely...

The next day, there was supposed to be the SAMSA election thingy until SIX PM!!! No way I was going...Too much work and assignments...Christina, Jillian and I escaped at first opportunity...

On Wednesday, it was Ko-PLN again, Ko-kurikulum Pelajar Luar Negara which personally I find as quite a waste of time. And the thing is, my group's facilitator had a meeting that day but it didn't occur to her to inform us! So there we were...suffering in the hot sun while waiting for news from our facilitator until we finally decided to leave. Just then, we got the message from her, telling us that she couldn't make it in time....Gah...this means there'll be replacement PLN sometime soon...More waste of time...

My class was supposed to have replacement Maths class on yesterday afternoon, only there was a talk in the Great hall about 3 unis in Aussie. It didn't offer Vet Science, so Jillian, Christina and I "cabut as well...But at night, there was even a talk at night in the Great Hall until 11PM regarding religion and stuff !!! Jillian went, but Christina and I stayed behind, after asking our classmates to sign the attendance list for us.

Indeed, there's an overload of assignments...

1. Ever growing pile of maths homework which I think is reaching the 400 question mark,
2. Ethics presentation, one hour long presentation along with folio
3. Two page single spacing PLN essay
4. Research for
4. C++ programming rules that I'm struggling to understand
5. Physics homework from Christina's class and intend to complete just to save my dying physics
6. Bio and Chem revision of my A-Levels notes which is appearing to be my lifeline now...

Oh, and I got the results of my first maths quiz back. 85%. At the standard of my absymal maths, and in a NORMAL school, I would have been beyond satisfied. Problem is, my genius classmates were comfortanly scoring 97% - 100% in the very same test...

*dies*

Indeed, everything's different here...Christina said the same when we talked yesterday...I'm walking around school all day with the knowledge that EVERYONE here is a top student of some kind...I meet students who seem like the play-the-fool kind, but emerge the next day with their homework all done...My classmates are the kind who have no qualms about sitting down for 5 hours straight doing homework...Its an immense pressure losing the sense of security that came with being used to sit at the top range among my classmates. I know it sounds cocky, but throughout high school it was always a comforting feeling being at the top that when suddenly, I'm in a place full of students that are at least as good, or far better than me...knowing that I could be one of the dunces among the born geniuses here...I guess that's making me work like I've never done before...but its making me far more exhausted than ever...

Jeez...now I know what Faye feels like, being in a class full of MARA scholars....

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